So what's it like now?

1/1/19

New year, new you - that's a famous tag line that I would always hear during the New Year's. I seem to like it but at the same time, it gives you a a bit of pressure on what part of yourself would you change for the better this year. I'm not very good with those. I end up keeping them for a month or two and then go back to my old habits. Well for me, it's not the usual resolutions that I would make but instead, I've decided to find a better avenue to express myself. I'm not very good at keeping diaries or journals but let's just give it a try.

I've been living in mediocrity after I graduated with my Bachelor's degree and I felt a certain satisfaction of just being in my comfort zone which is being in my hometown. Who would have thought a single decision would change my life in a lot of ways than I could ever imagine. It's amazing how one decision can change the path of your future that you never even thought would be possible.

That major decision was applying for a job abroad. I didn't do it just because they said it would mean greener pastures and provide a better future but maybe I just got sick of living in mediocrity and wanted a new adventure. That spark was ignited when I did my first vacation away from my hometown. That vacation was in Singapore and although the time was a bit limited, that mini vacation made me realize that there's so much more in this world than just where you are. I'm just living in one small fraction of the world and there is so much more that this world can offer and I wanted to discover what else was there.... What else was there for me? 

I started this journey 2 years ago after feeling like I lost myself and here I am now, I moved to a new country and immersed in a new culture. Anxiety kicked in a week before my flight thinking of what ifs. I honestly thought I would dread the cold weather but in fact, I enjoy it. I savor the cold breeze every time it touches my cheeks and I find myself enjoying cold refreshments or be under dressed for the weather. I find myself living every moment whether I'm just inside my spacious apartment or strolling outside in snow showers in my PJs and winter boots. I was worried no one would like me and apparently, I'm here surrounded with wonderful people who are always there to help you out. Moving made me realize that life beings at the end of your comfort zone. In this place right here, I have the options and opportunities and I could start from scratch here. Endless possibilities where you could be whatever you want to be. 

And so now, I'm just thinking... I'm glad I did it.